katimus_prime: Lyrics from Covenant: https://youtu.be/yBS6WaS0Sfk (Cherenkov - Brave New World)
2015-09-09 09:17 pm


Something I never realized is how much of a rash Tumblr has given me from squeezing me so close together with the opinions of people I adore but don't agree with. Lots and lots of talented, wonderful people, and the social expectation of having to spend x amount of time in each and everyone's head, carefully reading all of their headcanons I have varying degrees of disagreements with, has driven me insane.

In one hand, this is a good thing, because I've finally been able to act on my level of discomfort with FF7, which has been a stone around my neck for at least a decade. On the other hand, it's kind of sad to realize that I'm comfortable with bigger barriers between myself and my non-immediate friend circle.

I certainly don't want to be cut off forever from my friends, but I don't want to be so close that I can't express how much I disagree with them, but don't want to risk or waste the day to write an argument over public interbutt space with someone I otherwise admire.

The same thing happened when I was growing up with my best friend Kelly at the time. We were so close that we were in each others' heads half the time, but when we both started developing different opposing opinions, it was too comfortable to be close anymore. Even though I've patched things up with Kelly, it took years and a complete break away from her to realize how and why things got bad.

TL;DR, Tumblr made me forget that I like having a space where there's nobody there but me.